I think I've lost hope of getting pregnant before deployment. It's almost bittersweet realizing that it's just not going to happen. My period decided to show up randomly today, so unless we catch it just right within June, I'm on my own for the next twelve months. I'm still not sure exactly how I feel about it. It makes me sad because I'm ready to start a family, and after that heartbreak a month ago, I don't want to wait.... But at the same time there's a sense of relief knowing I won't be on my own whenever it finally happens. I'll work and finish school while he's gone and when he comes home... who knows. It's just one of those things I just have to deal with I suppose.
Memorial Day weekend is now I imagined it would be. I always figured we'd be spending it on the beach, me in a tankini covering up my pregnant belly... *sigh* I hate when things don't go as planned. Maybe I'm just pessimistic.
Matt's brother should be visiting sometime this month. His mom is sending him down as a graduation present so that he can spend some time with his brother before Matt deploys. Should be interesting. IDK when he's coming, or if it's when Maria is visiting, but we'll see, I suppose.
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