Some days... I honestly want to say I regret marrying into the military life. Don't get me wrong, I could not imagine my life without my husband and our future family... But some days, especially with growing up as an Army brat, I can't believe I chose this life. The unpredictable hours, stressful lifestyle, and deployments... Its definitely not the life for the light hearted.
Coming up on a year of this life, and I'm just now complaining? Let me explain.... Matt's packing for deployment, and stressing the hell out. I've never seen him so mad at something as trivial as packing in my entire time knowing him. Then again, this place doesn't do things in a "normal" fashion as it is... They kinda do everything ass-backwards and then all the people with brains pay for it. I'm sure my dog, who likes to run into walls mind you, could do a lot of it better. But that's besides the point....
I know stress plays a big part in pregnancy, and I'm worried that I'm the cause of the first one failing because I am a super stressed out person. Especially when Matt is freaking out about stuff, and our money situation is always screwed up, and everything else that just adds to it. So my point is... will being a Military wife allow me to have a successful pregnancy ever? They could never find a reason for my miscarriage as everything tested normal, but everyone says I was probably just too stressed with my family moving away and Matthew deploying. I'm not sure what to think about it.
I've literally sat around all day and done absolutely nothing as I can't get my house as "clean" as I want it until all of our stuff that needs to go into storage is placed there, since it's a very large eyesore in our dining area at the moment. I've had too much time to think... maybe I need to go watch mindless TV... I'm sure Glee is coming on soon (Lady Gaga episode! I can't wait!)
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